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Thursday, June 25, 2009

Filed under: Life, Poetry, Spirit — cody @ 7:10 am

I feel this morning like the little cricket below. How I seem to devote great energy into the most humble of efforts. Feeding children, kneading bread, moving laundry and belongings around the house, trying to find a full-time job. Inexplicably to me, the cricket, I somehow help God build the universe. I am happy this morning for the grace to connect with that. Lord, free me from the desire to be more significant, more noticed than You need. Accept my humble efforts. Help me to accept them too.

Song of the Builders

On a summer morning
I sat down
on a hillside
to think about God -

a worthy pastime.
Near me, I saw
a single cricket;
it was moving the grains of the hillside

this way and that way.
How great was its energy,
how humble its effort.
Let us hope

it will always be like this,
each of us going on
in our inexplicable ways
building the universe.

Mary Oliver from Why I Wake Early (2004)

Faint Praise

Filed under: Life — cody @ 6:48 am

What is “Drinkability” supposed to mean, exactly? Isn’t that setting the bar a little low for a beer?

Doesn’t “Drinkability” just mean that it’s not poisonous and it’s in a container with some sort of opening? Technically, I could pee in a can and that would have “Drinkability.” But we are talking about light beer here, so, potayto potahto.

I’ve actually tried Bud Light. A can of it was handed to me gratis by a friend. I was ready to order myself a Shiner Bock, but I didn’t want to be rude. When I took a first sip, many words came to mind. I guess “Drinkability” would be the kindest of all of them. Why not faint praise if you can offer nothing better, I guess?

Same goes for all the beers that emphasize how “cold” they are. Hello. The beer didn’t do that. Credit goes to the ice chest. But then again, if “cold” is the best thing you can say about the beer, better faint praise than none at all.

Never trust a beer you can see through, I say.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Feet of Comfort and Joy

Filed under: Life — cody @ 3:45 pm

I love my Vibram Five-Fingers shoes. Lord knows I do. But they look kind of funny and are too casual for general wearing. They’ve replaced my flip-flops, but I wish I had a pair of shoes that let me experience exquisite barefoot flexibility while maintaining proper decorum of foot for church and work.

I have pined longingly over the past year at the pictures of sold out Vivo Barefoot shoes on the Terra Plana website. And now they appear to have some in stock. Finally.

Drat the luck! A month after I lose my job, my dream shoes — the Vivo Barefoot Dharmas, black tumbled leather — finally are available.

Sigh. Some day the stars, planets, finances, employment, and Vivos in-stock inventory will align and I will finally kick it in my beloved Vivos. But maybe you could buy some now. Just leave a pair for me.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Yes, That’s Us.

Filed under: Life — cody @ 10:05 am

Apparently, they printed the story. Well, if it promotes adoption and foster parenting, then it’s worth having to stop a billion times today and say, “Yes, we were in the paper…”

Just don’t call us “good people.” We just said “Yes.” Actually a whole bunch of yesses. Anybody can say “Yes.”

Every blessing starts with a “Yes.”

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Rules for the pool 2009

Filed under: Life — cody @ 10:27 am

You’re all too old for the baby pool, you must stay in the big pool with me.
If you cannot demonstrate the ability to swim you cannot go off the diving board.
No drinking the pool water. Why? Go fish a pair of underwear out of your hamper. Think about it.
Absolutely no running. Race walking counts as running too.
You may not wear your shoes or beach towel into the water.
If somebody accidentally splashes you, no, you don’t get splashbacks. It’s the Pool. It happens.
If you splash someone on purpose, they most certainly do get splashbacks. Daddy, who is a much better shot than you, is included. So be prudent about who you splash.
If you are going to splash someone, do it right. If you ask Daddy, he’ll show you how. Swimming up to someone and kicking your legs is pathetic and ineffective.
Daddy reserves the right to join any splash war on the side of smaller children.
If you lose your grip while Daddy’s giving you a ride, call out and I’ll grab you. Do not use my ears, nose, or what’s left of my hair to stabilize yourself. This goes double for my chest and back hair.
If Daddy suddenly turns into a sea monster, you get a two (count ‘em, two) second head start. You may climb up on the side of the pool to escape the monster, but you cannot run screaming across the grounds.
If the sea monster catches you, tummy szrrrbtts are the standard penalty.
I know you want your friends to play Sea Monster too, but the Sea Monster only tummy szrrrbtts his own kids. With other people’s kids he becomes the Creepy Old Guy At The Pool and nobody wants that.
You get no more than four “Daddy, watch this!” episodes per fifteen minute period. After a full hour, you must come up with new material.
If you do a flip off of the diving board, please clear the pool for the next person before demanding accolades from your adoring fans.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

She Dreamed a Dream

Filed under: Music — cody @ 8:55 am

I am adding Susan Boyle to my list of personal Heroes.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

You have to be bad at something to be good at something.

Filed under: Parenting — cody @ 9:51 am

Yesterday I went outside to find Fresh standing in the driveway trying to make a basket. What made it one of those special dad moments was not the fact that I got to witness my child’s first unassisted basket and give him pointers, although that was nice too. It’s what he was saying to himself as he was doing it,

“You have to be bad at something to be good at something.”

Occasionally he would glance up at me as if to ask, “Right?”

“You bet. Everyone who is good at something was once bad at it for a long time.”

I cannot count how many times I have said that to my children when they gave up or got frustrated. I was grateful to be allowed to see that in some way what I say does sink in.

With tireless repetition, what I say and do with my kids does, over time, sink in. Which is kind of a scary thought, actually.

Sorry, Girlzilla. I had to be bad at something to be somewhat better at it. You were my first pancake. But you’re turning out pretty good anyway. Heh.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Blogging the Abyss

Filed under: Work — cody @ 11:17 pm

“A man looks in the abyss, there is nothing staring back at him. At that moment he discovers his character. That keeps the man out of the abyss” — Hal Holbrook’s character from Wall Street

That’s how I feel. I’m looking into the abyss. On March 26th, one day after I messed up my site by accident and couldn’t post, I got laid off from my consulting job. My job will no longer be mine as of April 27th.

I’m told it’s purely business. Shifing business models. I am “surplus.”

My faith is being tested. Fear, doubt, anger all want to paralyze me. I try not to look down. One next right thing at a time.

But even in this time, I am blessed. By my wonderful wife. By a community of supportive friends. By prayer and by the gift of grace that allows me to fall into the arms of my God. Which means to lean on my community, to trust and turn over those thoughts that touch my inner core of cold fear about being out of work with four kids to support.

What does worrying accomplish? I can only chop wood, carry water, and leave the rest up to God. He is apparently having me go through this as part of some plan. Different than what I would have chosen but isn’t it always the case?

Anyway, my only true choice is abandonment. I like this from Thomas Merton.

My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain
where it will end.

Nor do I really know myself,
and that I think I am following your will
does not mean I am actually doing so.

But I believe
the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire
in all I am doing.

I hope
I will never do anything
apart from that desire.
And I know if I do this
you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.

I will trust you always
though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death.

I will not fear,
for you will never leave me
to face my perils alone

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Bound up

Filed under: Spirit — cody @ 9:08 am

Read this quote, apparently quite popular, but I’d never heard it before this morning:

“If you are coming to help me, you are wasting your time. But if you are
coming because your liberation is bound up with mine, then let us work
together.”
– Australian Aboriginal Woman

Reminds me of Matthew Chapter 25 and how Jesus says that my salvation is bound up with the poor, the stranger, those in prison, etc.

Monday, March 16, 2009

The Original Point of the “Cramer/Stewart” Feud

Filed under: Life — cody @ 11:31 am

Daily Beast has a comprehensive blow-by-blow of the Cramer/Stewart mega-pseudo-dustup. Lots of breathless critical coverage of John Stewart’s critical coverage of CNBC’s lack of critical coverage of the financial bubble that burst all over us, but all of it misses the original point.

Stewart’s initial drubbing of CNBC was aimed at the audacity of CNBC’s Rick Santelli. Santelli called troubled mortgage holders “losers” for wanting to be bailed out of the situations they had gotten themselves into. Quite galling since Santelli said it while fomenting a revolt amongst the traders from the market floor on Wall Street. How dare Main Street be as gullible and greedy as Wall Street? Pot, kettle, black.

John Stewart was pointing out how CNBC was among the cheerleaders of the bubble that stoked the gullible greediness, the mirage of endless growth that justified such foolish leveraged investment. But apparently such foolishness is only bailout-worthy when you’re “too big to fail.” Foolish mortgage owners who want the same kind of help are “losers?”

Stewart was just pointing out, ruthlessly and at length, the hypocrisy of CNBC spending years of air time blowing up the bubble and then blaming those who burst with it. Cramer was barely winged in the attack but was the only one with guts enough to respond. Santelli was the one Stewart wanted on his show, not Cramer.

The final showdown between Cramer and Stewart was as hard to watch for me as it was riveting. It was like he quit doing comedy for a night and said, “Here. I’ll show you how to do your job” with a well researched, well documented takedown of Cramer. Cramer threw himself on the grenade for his network, playing James Fry to Stewart’s Oprah.

I would be quite happy if professional journalists put as much research into their reporting as John Stewart puts into his comedy. Lack of critical reporting was the main beef for Stewart in the end. But in the beginning, it was the audacity of pointing out the speck in troubled mortage owners’ eyes when the financial sector had a log in its own.

Deeper down, another thing still troubles me. We as a country have a rooted distate for mercy. Bailouts, to me, are essentially mercy. Giving people who do stupid stuff with money another chance they don’t deserve is mercy. Mercy cannot be deserved or earned. It can only be given. Yes, there must be justice, but for Christians, mercy trumps justice. Or at least it should since that’s the whole point of Christ in the first place.

The stories I see about the coming populist revolt trouble me. Yes, we the people should be angry. But a lot of this populism comes from our culture’s contempt for those who need and show mercy. We choke down the idea of the bailouts only out of fear and self-interest. Politicians tells us that the idiots will take us down with them if we don’t bail them out. There is no recognition that we need to temper justice with mercy in our so-called Christian nation.

To the extend that we are a merciless society, we are a godless society. That’s a bankruptcy of another, more serious kind.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Lunch

Filed under: Life — cody @ 9:00 am

Okay, so while I am at it. I’ll capture the recipe for my favorite quick lunch. It started out as an improvisation, but now it is something I will make sure I always have ingredients on hand for.

I would link the article I read that inspired this experiment. The article about omega 3s and the need to eat oily fish rather than take fish oil supplements. The article that fascinated me with its connection between farming and ranching practices in the west and the decline of Omega 3s in the western diet. But for the life of me I cannot remember the source or find it by Googling.

Oh well, this is what I got from it. I tried canned fish of the types that the ariticle said have the highest Omega 3 content. Turns out Herring, Sardines, Anchovies, and Salmon top the list. Anchovies are quite salty and I don’t know how to do anything with them yet that I find palatable. Kippered Herring is okay with saltines but bland. Don’t really enjoy it much unless I add some sort of sauce and most of those have added sugar, etc.

But canned salmon — the good kind that actually looks like it used to be salmon, the kind without the little round boney things that crumble in my mouth and make my soul shudder — that led me to this improvisation:

Good canned Salmon (packed in water)
Handful of Pumpkin Seeds
Handful of chopped Sun-dried Tomatoes
Just enough Crumbled Feta cheese
Coupla Tbs Minced Onion
To taste: Kosher Salt, Red Pepper Flakes, Balsamic Vinegar
Mix with Extra Virgin Olive Oil, just enough to moisten

Walla! Lunch!

Breakfast

Filed under: Life — cody @ 8:43 am

This recipe is my standard breakfast smoothie. Heidi calls it a gritty. It is my current go-to in the morning. Lasts until lunch.

1/3 cup frozen blueberries
Handful of walnuts
2T Ground Flax Seeds
Local Honey (to taste)
1 Cup 2% Milk
5 Ice Cubes

Simple. Loud. Going for Omega 3s, Fiber, and Antioxidants.

Helps to pulse the milk and ice first until smooth and then add the other ingredients.

Why am I sharing this? Dunno. Maybe I want my future self to remember what I thought was healthy back when I was in my early forties. maybe I just want to record the recipe so I can remember how I made that old smoothie I used to like.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Facilitator in Chief

Filed under: Ideas, Life — cody @ 9:27 am

So since I am a social conservative and a Catholic I feel obligated to qualify any mention of our new president with my disagreement with his position on Life issues, but…

I am so damn glad to have a real leader back in highest office. Someone who can facilitate real dialogue and separate policies from personalities.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Plus-Minus

Filed under: Ideas, Life — cody @ 11:51 am

I usually wait until this time of the season to start following it, but I like basketball. I’m a half fan in that I watch the last half of the season, once the various plots have thickened a bit.

One sports story that is fascinating me is the one about Shane Battier, the “No-Stats All-Star” who plays for my hometown Rockets. Reading this feature about him in the NYT has made me a fan. He’s a basketball player after a geek’s heart. Using an uncanny mastery of basketball stats, he has a way of making the whole team better and his opponents team worse. Even though his personal stats are lackluster and his athletics abilities don’t stand out. Battier is one of the most efficient players in the league in value for price.

His only standout stat is Plus-Minus. In other words, the team does better when he is in the game. Although nobody can point to exactly how he does it. He seems to sense what he needs to do to give his team the highest probability of success in each situation. And usually those things he does are not the things that show up in box scores and highlight reels.

That is an example to imitate in life. What do I need to do to make the whole team better when I am in the game? What’s my Plus-Minus?

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

World of Fritterin’

Filed under: Life — cody @ 1:24 pm

Girlzilla downloaded World of Goo on WiiWare for Fresh’s birthday yesterday. He’s nine.

Under the guise of needing to know how it works so that he and I can play together, I snuck on this morning when I should have been working and spent a guilty but enjoyable 30 minutes trying it out. I understand now why it’s such an acclaimed game: the gameplay is addictive, the design is masterful, it’s whimsical, it’s casual play, and it’s a pretty darned educational physics game only stealthily so. Doesn’t feel educational at all.

The most maddening thing for me is that there is no tutorial per se. But I found a pretty good FAQ sheet .

Oh, I can see some time frittering a’comin! The trick is to replace TV fritterin with World of Goo fritterin’ instead of just adding more fritterin’ to my fritterin’ balance.

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